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I work at PETCO's corporate office and everyone here can bring their pets to work.  There are dogs, cats, rats, g-pigs, hamsters, birds, lizards, snakes....all over this building.  It definitely creates a different work enviroment.  I am a space planner for the small animal department.  So after I had a sample habitat sitting on my desk for several weeks I decided to join the crowd and get a pet....so here she is in all her glory....I have had here a few months now and I have to admit she is very amusing....

Anastasia Beaverhausen

Well I have been back in San Diego a year now.  I guess I was hoping that my social life would be more involved than it has become at this point.  I don't really have a running buddy or partner in crime and sometimes feel that if I didn't put myself out there and participate, that no one would come and get me.  OK...enough of a pity party about myself. 

I suppose if I want stronger more connected relationships with my friends then I need to let that be known.  There are so many awesome guys that I have become friends with since I have moved back here but sometimes I believe it is hard to truly break into the inner circle that a group has formed before you were here.  My goal in this next year is to really put myself out there and connect more with the great guys that I have become friends with since I have moved back here and to try to create a stronger friendship with those that I knew from when I lived here before.  This is my life...and if I want it to be as amazing as it can be given my city, my surroundings and the people that I connect with, then I need to make that happen. 

This next year is about 2 things for me....creating stronger lasting relationships with my friends and throwing myself whole heartedly back into my music....because those are the things that really matter to me.

I moved back here for the great outdoor experiences that are so close...ocean, mountains, desert....and I'm going to take advantage of that going forward.  I also moved back here for the great people....and as I've said, i am ready to dive deeper into those friendships....now I just need to act upon my feelings....if only that was as easy as writing them here.  But this is a start...

Thanks to those who have opened up their arms to me as friends...please know I appreciate you and hope that we can grow our relationships.....I'm ready to really Start Living!

Well...I have been trying to eat better and work out more....and it's just no fun I tell you.  So I broke down and took the week off.  It sure is a lot easier off the wagon!!  But enough of that...I plan on hopping back on that horse or wagon or treadmill....next week and reboot this new phase of my life.  They say 40 is the new 30 and I always wanted to be really fit in my 30's so I guess I have that chance again now to do it.

My friend Jennyanne is coming in for the weekend from Nashville...so I assume the time off the wagon will continue through Sunday with Margaritas, Mexican Food, Martini Party, and maybe some late night Carne Asada Fries!  Oh My!!  Gonna try to go to the zoo on Saturday so maybe I can walk a little of it off.

Life is good.  I'm really trying to stay focused on some other goals as well....and the future still looks bright!

ok...today is my first day of the Boot Camp class at the gym.  I hope it doesnt kick my butt...but I'm pretty sure it is going too......Now if I can just stay motivated and get myself to the gym 4 times a week....maybe just maybe I'll have something to be proud of come Southern Decadence....woo hoo...go me!! :)

Ok...so here we are already in Feb.  Well I did finally join the gym and have been starting to go regularly.  I hope I can actually stick to it this time.  I got a few sessions with a personal trainer to help kick start my workout.  It is going ok.  I hope to go 4 times a week.  3 times will be for cardio and weights and the 4th time will be for a Boot Camp class on Wednesdays.  Please God...give me the strength to maintain this.  I want to finally be really proud of what I can accomplish by this summer.

I also booked my flight and hotel for Southern Decadance.  I am going to New Orleans with my friends Todd, TJ and Bill.  We are trying to get a larger group to go but have no one fully commited this early.  I'm sure the size of the group will grow.

As soon as I can get in the habit of picking up my guitar again every day for a little bit, I am going to find a guitar teacher and start taking lessons again.  Music is going to be a priority in my life in 2009.  I hope to make this jounal a priority as well.  I believe that when you write things down, you can stick to them and also have words to reflect back on when you need inspiration.

I hope to meet someone in 2009 to share my life with, but I am not going to go out looking....I'm hoping it will just happen when the time and the person is right.

I am happy, healthy, wealthy (in other ways than money..lol) and hopefully wise

Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones that dont, and whether everything happens for a reason or not, something can always be learned from every happening.  If you get a chance, take it.  If it changes your life, let it.  Nobody said life would be easy...but I believe it will be worth it!

OK...here I am back in San Diego.  Now it's time to get off my ass and find true happiness.  I'm ready to do whatever it is that I need to do to be the person I really want to be.

Journey #1...physical.  I am joining a gym today and am going to start watching my diet better.
Journey #2...creativity.  I am ready to get back into my music.  I am going to start taking guitar lessons to move myself to the next level as a musician.  I am also going to search for other songwriter for collaboration.

I am where I want to be...now baby steps to be who I want to be.

I am starting to form new friendships as well as rekindle old ones.  I am going to work harder on making these relationships a priority.  I am happy, healthy, wealthy, lucky and wise.

I have stopped looking back and am ready to go forward...thanks to everyone who has been supportive.  Life is good...and I can't wait for it to be awesome!

Well I finally decided to start posting in here again.  I am still living in Dallas.  MARK and I decided to split up last Fall.  I still love him and miss him a lot but I believe we are still building an everlasting friendship that will be very strong for the rest of our lives.  I lost my job with T-Mobile at the end of February, which is a very long story that I will put in another posting.  I have a job interview today which I hope will be the start of a new career for me.  I will be sure to call all of my friends and let them know the outcome.  Beside that, things are going ok.  I have joined a gym and am starting to work out again.  Easter is this Sunday and I plan on going to the park to see the symphony play and hang out with friends.  I think we may go to the Easter Bonnet Contest after that.  Anyway...I'm back and plan on journaling much more in the future.  See you soon!

Well...here it is, my 38th birthday. I am in Dallas and MARK is still in Nashville. We have put our relationship on hold for the time we are apart but that does not make me miss him any less. He has a free ticket on Southwest, so I hope he can come visit soon. That would be the best present ever. I decided to take the day off from work and now I kinda wish i would have gone so I wouldn't be sitting here thinking about all the uncertainties in my life. I'm a Taurus and we bulls hate uncertainty. Oh well, maybe I'll go out to a nice lunch with my friend Michael. Anyway...another year gone...hope 38 is going to be a good year.

Here it is...my first entry into my journal. I am on the brink of a new chapter in my life. On Monday, I will drive out of Nashville heading to East Texas. I will stay with my parents for 2 days and then end up in Dallas on Wednesday. I will be staying with my friend Michael until the end of May. I am starting a new position with T-Mobile in Frisco, Texas while my partner MARK stays here in Nashville to start a new position with his company. I have very mixed emotions about the whole thing. I'm thrilled that I will have my parents and a few friends close again. I have known my friend Shannon longer than any friend I have today. We have known each other since I was 6 and he was 5. Yes, Shannon you are younger...but not by much :) I am also sad that MARK and I will be spending up to a year apart. I think it is the best for both of our careers, but I am going to miss him terribly. We will just be doing a lot of traveling over the next 12 months. Anyway...I glad I finally got my first journal entry in here and I am ready to begin a new chapter...Come What May!!